Looking back

This last year has been a year of sadness, in many respects.

The most recent the death of a teenage girl who was rapped and beaten by a gang of men in a country where it is all too common and nothing is done.

Then there was the shooting of so many innocent children in a country where people flock to buy guns to counter the possibility of legislation to ban them.

The incredible devastation in New York State of Hurricane Sandy, so many people have lost all but their lives and have to somehow rebuild their lives.

Thirty two people lost their lives at a time when they should have been relaxing and enjoying a vacation when the Costa Concordia took on water and the captain abandoned ship.

A shooting at Toronto's largest shopping mall, The Easton Centre killing and injuring, only to be followed shortly after by a street party shooting where so many were injured and 2 more deaths.

A cinema in Aurora, Colorado killed 12 and injured 58 others. One of those killed had survived the shooting at the Eaton centre just 18 days before.

Not to mention the landslides, floods, tropical storms, tornadoes, snowstorms, avalanches, wildfires, earthquakes, tsunamis and other natural disasters hitting all over the world, devastating so many lives.

In retrospect my personal sadness doesn't hold up to any of these, but sadness is sadness nonetheless. I lost an uncle, I lost another man that I called uncle, although he was a friend of my parents. I also lost the love of my job. Although it has only been during the last 4 months or so, it has made a huge impact on me. It affects so much of my life, from being hurt and injured on an almost daily basis, to coming home exhausted each and every day. I've lost connections that I worked so hard on making, friends and family seem to be far away from me, because I haven't put the time into them that I used to due to feeling so tired all the time.

Not a big believer in New Year Resolutions, I have vowed to myself that my attitude is in big time need of a huge change. I must shake off these negative feelings, and search hard to find the good in life. I really want to be that person who has a positive attitude, who can see the good in people, and turn things around to make me happy.

It started somewhat in November when I started to get the ball rolling on preparing myself for job listings for September 2013. I registered myself at the college of ECE, got my first aid up to date and applied for 17 jobs. On the last day of school, Dec 21, I got word that I have an interview for the jobs in mid January. That was a good thing, a great first Christmas present. It also showed me that with a little planning good things work out. Now I need to prepare for that interview, ace it and be offered any of the 17 jobs I applied for.

The year hadn't all been horrific. I was just reading my annual newsletter that I send out each year, and there is actually not one negative thing in there. I guess that is because I want family and friends to see that I am doing well. So if I can write a 4 page newsletter with good positive news, then I must be doing something right.

If you'd like to read my news letter you can by clicking here.

In the meantime I wish you all a healthy, happy and fun filled 2013.